Testing testing 123~

I SHOULD be paying attention to Obama now but..
I keep getting distracted.. 
being dizzy right now doesn't help either ;-;
But it seems like he's doing good stuff XD

So for a few weeks, I've been thinking about Wonder Girls and Big Bang.. and how people have been saying how they love DaeEun (Daesung and YeEun), but there's a lack of DaeEun in fanfiction.. everywhere XD It's usually G-dragonxSunye (or Sohee), TaeyangxSunye (or Sohee), SeungRixSunMi and TOPxYoobin.
Of course I'm the one who loves the underrated people so finding fanfics of this couple is pretty much impossible. So I made up my own couple XD: TOPxYeEun~~ They're like the hip-hop(TOP) R&B(Ye Eun) couple~

Yes. I am crazy. I've gotten so crazy that I had a dream about them dating, so I need fanfiction. Now. T___T

Michyeosseo~~

The Real TaeSu: TaeyangxJunsu~ Fuu~~ lol Junsu please be kind to Seungri v_v He loves you so~

So lol in the KPop world, a member of SNSD is once again bashed for her big mouth. Taeyeon said something something about how a nurse refused to give her an IV because the doctor was absent and she had to have his orders. (Honestly? You have a freaking cold -.- You'll be fine, my dear.) Kang In clearly didn't help because he was egging her on. Nurses started sending her messages because they were offended (and they weren't RUDE. They were just informing her about why they couoldn't give her an IV) and then in the end she apologized in a way that a scolded child would if she didn't mean it. Netizens were just bugged by the fact that she had to have a long rant on the air.

And then a few minutes later, after an Alicia Keys song comes on, she says "For a black person, Alicia Keys is very pretty". I guess as a black person I should feel really offended but I found it kind of funny. S<3ne was defending her by saying they feel the very same way about certain races and that it isn't racist, it's just an opinion. So it's not racist that she's assuming that most black people are ugly when Beyonce is one of the most celebrated American artists in Korea? I had rabu_meevs  listen to the audio and she said that the way she talked was very rude so clearly it wasn't much of a compliment.

It's a new year, girls. Will you ever learn? -.-

Fanfiction please T_________T

I honestly think I'm going insane. High school is killing me.. College is killing me.  With my crap grades, I won't be able into any colleges and I'm too poor to afford anything outside of Georgia. I don't even know if I'm cut out for college or if I WANT to go to college. I'll probably be another Walmart employee while rabu_meevs  will be a famous celebrity dentist and Kerri will be helping drug addicts get over their addictions.
I've decided to just settle for some community college and work in a cubicle for the rest of my life. I deserve it for being stupid and lazy. I hate this and I'm tired of crying over it. A bottle of pain killers is calling my name and I've been so tempted to answer it.

Stole it from soloscry 

Five things you will find if you open my purse.
...I don't.. carry a purse T__T

Five things in my bedroom
1. My Jaejoong poster
2. My tons of stuffed animals
3. Manga
4. Idiot clock/radio
5. bed..?

Five things I’ve always wanted to do in my life
1. Learn Korean or Japanese (Wishing~)
2. Live in Japan (Okinawa is nice~)
3. Get married to a non-worthless man
4. Be successful
5. Go back to New York  (most definitely happening since living in Japan might be hard..)

Five things that make me very happy
1. TVXQ!
2. Yossy~~ <3
3. Reading
4. Friends
5. Music

Five things I’m currently into
1. Collecting old Morning Musume funny clips (I miss them T__T)
2. Getting to know Big Bang?
3. DBSK (i don't think it'll ever change)
4. Successful Story of a Bright Girl
5. Resting over Winter Break

Five things on my To-Do list
1. CLEAN!!!!
2. Do applications
3. Study for math
4. Finish my mountain of books that I stole from the media center (Perks from being a Media Aid? First dibs on new books~)
5. Exercising... -_-

Five things some people may or may not know about you
1. I'm violent
2. I despise everyone in Johnny's Entertainment.. except.. Tsubasa?
3. I've become addicted to Poupee (Poopeh not poopie XD)
4. I got into yaoi through DBSK
5. MARS is my number one favorite romance manga and number one Taiwanese drama (.. i've only watched two XP Jiro Wang~<3)

Five most important moments of 2008
1. Passing first semester classes
2. SNSD's black ocean (huu huu huu...)
3. Finally wearing my Forever 21 sweater~~ (stupid zipper broke a few days after -.-)
4. His Rescuer was updated~!
5. Learned how to read Hangul

Five things you enjoy doing during your free time
1. Rewatching old Morning Musume and Hello! Morning clips
2. Reading fanfics or books
3. Finding music
4. Killing time on the internet
5. Wasting money on Poupee

Five impressions of the person who tagged me!

Hmm.. Well I wasn't tagged..

Maybe I'm just being emotional because of the pains of being a woman? lol Red Ocean~

I guess it all started at SATs today. My mom and sister keep bringing up college and the more they do, the more agitated I get because I'm clueless on what I should do and I don't think I'll be able to get into a good college and I've been feeling even more depressed because of this. And my scores definitely are not good enough to get into the college I want to. I see my friends and kids at school like Will Cobb and Amberlie who are so talented and are good enough to do something in college. Will Cobb is an amazing conductor and he's a talented musician and Amberlie is the best softball player in the state and she's already been accepted to the college I want only because of her skills in sports. I'm in tougher classes than she is and I'm a little smarter than she is (lol sorry Amberlie~~ I do love you though~). Kerri wants to be a substance abuse counselor and this just came out of nowhere considering she's not even TRYING to get through school anymore.

I don't have much time to decide where I want to go to college and what major I want but I'm researching it now... lol and I'm here sobbing at my computer to the point of nausea because I don't know what I want to do and I don't have a lot of time to decide. I've actually calmed down because I'm doing more research but.. I'm EXTREMELY freaked out.
I WANT to be an editor because I love books and I'm really.. picky about things I read like with grammar and stuff (I edit for rabu_meevs but.. sometimes I don't do very well XD), but I apparently have to major in Journalism and I have to write a lot and I really do hate writing. It's not that I'm bad at it, I just hate it. It's not like this is my first time looking it up because I've been constantly looking for more information on it...
Something else I want to do.. is do Asian studies. I've been interested in Asia since I was little. It wasn't just anime that I'm interested and I'm starting to dislike it now thanks to SOME people XD I'm interested in the history of Asia, the culture and the language. I'd also like to major in Japanese but I don't know what I can really do with that... Translating? I could work in magazines or with books like I originally wanted to do.

Here's my list just so I can organize myself XD
-Editor
-Journalism Translator
-Literary Translator
-Audiovisual Translator

Which means the major I'll have to take is
-English
-Foreign Language
-Linguistics
-Journalism

Hmm.. well at least I'm more organized, hm? I'll just follow this plan.. now I just need to up my  SAT scores >_> XD Maybe I should just dash myself off the rooftop and hope it kills me so I don't have to stress over this -.-* College is poo. Off to wash my face before anyone can tell I was bawling like a baby in my room XD

Just something I'd like to say with all the awards talk going around~  I'm proud to be a TVXQ fan, even if I'm an unofficial Cassiopeian. While I am sad that they didn't win Artist of the Year, it's not like it'd be possible with them flying between Korea and Japan constantly. I'm not a fan of Big Bang (I like SeungRi only because he likes Junsu and I like DaeSung because of Family Outing XD And he's a pretty amazing singer)but congrats to them.

I'm really proud of them and I know they'll keep being as successful as they are now.
Dong Bang Shin Ki Fighting~!



As for Wonder Girls' winning Song of the Year.. my opinion is..  Honestly, Nobody isn't that great of a song. It just has the same beat as So Hot, but the lyrics are very nice. I think So Hot should've been nominated instead as it's been out longer. As for their live singing... I don't see SoHee's age as an excuse honestly. Morning Musume's Kago Ai, Asuka Fukuda, Goto Maki and Tanaka Reina were 12 and 13 when they auditioned and got in and they're amazing The first three are considered some of Morning Musume's greatest singers. And they had no training before their debut so... yeah. =/ I love Wonder Girls and all but that's how I see it.

Headline news~ Why people are suddenly rushing out to buy guns and what does it have to do with Obama's win.

Kh kh kh~

lol I don't know how to gather my feelings right now...

...

I really hate you. I honestly do. I'm sure that God didn't create you. Satan must've put you on this Earth to make everyone miserable. I'm sure we can predict that in the future, you'll just die alone like you deserve. You call yourself a good Christian but all you do is look down on others and you're SO hypocritical, you're a huge liar and you're so fake.

It makes no sense to constantly ask me if I hate you when you obviously know I do, Mother. Unfortunately, you were never really bright, hm?

Gerald I miss you ;_;

IT SHALL NOT BRING ME DOWN!! I'm finishing this essay tonight, baby~ Huu hah~

Yes, it is indeed amazing. Beautiful. So Hot~ So Fine~ So Cool~~

I really love it XD I'm still trying to get used to the hairstyles. I finally started liking Junsu's hair XD I do like Yunho's hair but sometimes it looks to choppy.. like Vegeta from DBZ or something.
I'm glad with their new image and all. Everyone is really excited (even a certain blogger who seems to dislike Big Bang lots), but while they're getting more manly with their image, I just don't want them to be constantly showing skin, which their new stylist likes apparently. I kind of liked it when it was rare for them to show some skin and even though some fans are glad they're showing more skin, I don't want them to... start looking like JE Boys. They (JE Boys) seem to have a topless photoshoot everytime and it's probably an addition to my not liking them.
Maybe I'm thinking too much? XD

A strange quote indeed XD This post is just to say that I miss Clazziquai Project T___T I miss Alex and Horan and DJ Clazzi. I'm glad they released the japanese album but i want them to come back in korea ;-;

And I miss Yossui ;-; WHAT HAPPENED TO HER SOLO CAREER, TSUNKU? All you focus on is milking those poor little Berryz and C-ute kids for all their worth. But I guess if the pedo!wotas are willing to pay anything for their merchandise, who are you to not supply them~? Just make Yossui do something ;-; She's a freakin grown woman. Why would you put her in a group with kids to romp around with crappy music? She should DO SOMETHING. At least she has that show that I kind of like.. i haven't really watched it cuz no one uploads it, but she's very amusing on the show XD Yossy (it's so weird spelling it like that O.o) split~! I think it's called Wao~n? DBSK was on it XD I don't know who I was more jealous of, DBSK or Yocchan XD My two loves within a few feet of each other~

And I miss Goto Maki ;-; I know she's performing at a-nation but I don't know WHAT she's performing since she's new there.. she'll prolly be an opening act or something.. But I'm glad that she's with avex cuz they'll promote her better than H!P~

I guess in times like this, you can always say "it can't get any worse~". Hopefully it won't.

School....

...

AUGH!!! I dread it so much XD My senior year starts tomorrow (I'm a senior before you, Victor~ Nya ha ha), and I'll really have to study hard to get a 3.6 so I can go to UGA. Most likely the lovely rabu_meevs will get in but I don' t even know what to do with myself... and I have to get my schedule fixed... So much to do~~~~~~dkslajdfskajksajdksam dslsd's';slsksaaaaaaaaaaa

I dun wanna go to school T_T

TWO WEEKS WITHOUT WE JUST MARRIED?! And I think Andy's taking his wifey and her family out to dinner T___T and I think Solbi's unni visits them T________T

How


Will


I


Live?!

I am so sick and tired of SNSD fans assuming that everyone who hates SNSD is a Cassie or an Elf. There are actually some people who like SNSD, DBSK and Super Junior and what's the point of being jealous when we barely have a chance of actually dating a DBSK (or SuJu or.. SS501). Well.. except for Jaejoong, but he's most likely going to marry a Korean fan. And I don't care if Jessica dated Donghae. He's free to date who he wants. I'm not going to whip him for it.
I'll honestly say that I was shocked about the whole Taeyeon/Junsu scandal but I got over it because I didn't think it was true. I guess it was because they were rumored to be paired for the Haptic commercial and they weren't even together in the commercial but they HAPPENED to be together in California.
Do I have to be jealous of SNSD because I'm not a fan of their music and their behavior annoys me? Then I guess I'm jealous. I'm jealous of their bubblegum pop music and their sometimes snobbish behavior.
 I'm jealous that Taeyeon insulted Kangin and I'm jealous that he tried to protect her from ELF (which really didn't work) by saying that she meant to say something else (and I'm pretty sure she didn't make much of an excuse for herself).
 I'm jealous that Sunny was on a radio show with Sungmin (who I'm not even a fan of) and I'm jealous that she had a whole Super Junior unit basically dedicated to her.
 I'm jealous of that one girl who got to wear Super Junior T's Rokkugoh wings.
 I'm jealous that Tiffany got to insult Cassiopeia and say their red balloons looked like insects. Gosh it's so unfair.
 I wish I could make up lies about my seniors and get bashed for it.
 Screw Yoona for saying to a member of S.E.S (who paved the way for other girl groups) that they are artificial and SNSD is this generation's beauties because I wanted to do it first. And why did she get to go on a radio show with one of the top ballad singers in Korea and give him a half-ass bow like he was some nobody?
 I wish I could disrespect my seniors in the Entertainment Industry, but I guess I'm just fated to be one of the little people.
 And Jessica Jung has let me see the light. Yunho's poisoning wasn't true after all. It was just a stunt pulled by LSM for a little publicity! Silly me. I'm glad she set me straight.
Oh.. as a DBSK fan, I guess I shouldn't be writing properly and using proper grammar because I'm stupid and jealous. i guess I'll save that lesson for next time.

lmao I'm so angry that my heart is beating super hard XD I wish I had a plate around me so I could throw it.

...

I need to find something to destroy

Maybe I'll write quotes for my topics? XD Anyway I want to record my strange dream because I love it so XD It involves zombies, a witch from Passions, video game cardboard people, ninjas and hot angry alien princes~~

So I guess Shaun of the Dead came back to haunt me XD Last night I dreamed that a virus turned everyone into zombies. They were basically seeking out people who weren't zombies so they could turn into zombies too. I unfortunately got found out XD So I was sitting in my bathroom trying to fend them off and humans just randomly popped up in my bathroom to be protected to. I think.. Peter Lee, my best friend Victor (

toastmmhot), rabu_meevs maybe. I only remember Peter because he was writing letters to different medical colleges and calling professors... That's why he died first =] 
I finally noticed that people started disappearing and I was the only one left XD So I said to myself, "Well, I might as well get it over with" and opened the door and all the zombies attacked me and I turned into a zombie ;-; When I finally got out of the crowd and they went to attack other houses, Victor and I (we were the only good zombies XD) decided to visit the neighborhood witch (Tabitha from the soap opera Passions) and make her turn us human and rid the world of all the zombies~ She kept saying how she couldn't do it and blah blah blah but we finally convinced her and she used a spell to kill all the zombies. The world was peaceful again~

And then the dwarf ninjas came. It was the same morning that we finally got rid of the zombies XD Tabitha was attacking them with magic since they were mostly outside and then these... scary cardboard video game characters invaded the house. Victor and I were stabbing them with utensils but they wouldn't die! XD I abandoned the whole cause and ran upstairs to a room to hide when the ninjas got into the house.
 I was almost finished blocking the door when the door blasted open and someone grabbed me and threw me to the floor. Lo and behold~~ It was the prince~ I didn't even know his name, but for some reason he was attacking our house. I thought he was taking prisoners because he was treating everyone, especially me, so rudely. He kept dragging me around and telling me to pack things but naturally I did the opposite because I hate when people tell me what to do XD When I finally asked him what his problem was he said he needed someone to marry and that he wanted to marry me XDD I guess that made me put up a fight even more because we fought and argued all the way to his royal spaceship (with ninjas carrying my luggage XD). I guess we became one of the asian drama couples. The guy who's really good looking, rich and royal and bad tempered and me who's plain and poor~ His home planet ended up looking just like Jurai from Tenchi Muyo o.O
Later, we fell in love~ (psh XD that jerk) and we got married with a grand wedding just like he wanted~

And then I woke up.


Reality is harsh. Especially in the morning.